How fast and slow does summer go all at the same time? It seems I wrote the last post a week ago but then again the days have gone slow for me... maybe its because I'm not rushing around doing a million things as usual... any way I promised a post a week after last but its turned into almost three weeks later... oops! :/ I hope you'll forgive me.
Anyway I promised to talk about getting the courage to get out there and do what you really want to do...
I always believed I would someday do something special, at least that's what I wanted to do, probably most of us has some aspirations to become famous, save someones life, be noticed at least... maybe even invent a medical breakthrough that cures all diseases! come up with a super formula to loose weight or grow hair!! Save the world!! ooops.. getting carried away..
: I must have been about 9 and my dream was to be an Olympian gymnast! I would go to sleep every night thinking about it and when the Olympics came on I would glue myself to the tv screen. I tried to teach myself.. (my family did not have the money and really I never told anyone my secret aspirations) I really didn't know how to achieve my dreams but thought if I dream it enough... it will happen.
Now I knew I had to practice but who would teach me?? I knew no one who could help me, so the next best thing was to go for the cheer leading team at school... maybe I could inch my way to my goal through that.. but alas.. I was not popular, or very coordinated so my cheer leading aspirations were quenched in zero-point-ten seconds when I couldn't even remember the cheer for tryouts!! I could tumble.. a little.. do the splits.. do a back bend and a cartwheel. I was very flexible! why not? I practiced anyway every day in my backyard!I got better, I knew someday somehow someone would discover me and I would be the next Nadia Comaneci!!
That was my dream until my second year(needless to say, my dream was dwindling fast!) of college when in my Gymnastics class, my teacher over rotated me and I fell on the balance beam and broke my nose!! that's it... I was done!! I couldn't keep the dream alive anymore. too painful... I was too old any way! not in the future at all, so why bother...I quit!
Fast forward...30 something years... no I never fulfilled my dream of becoming an Olympic gymnast ...the odds were against me...
I really never knew what i wanted to be when I grew up... Yes I loved to draw.. but that didn't mean i could ever be good enough... at least not good enough to aspire to own my own art business, that could never happen to me.. I thought I was mediocre.. but that didnn't mean I was going to stop learning and growing as an artist..I kept trying and putting away my art until my husband and family began to think that I was having hoarding issues! Finally I was given an ultimatum...sell it or stop doing it.. that was it.. it wasn't a matter of... "is it good enough", but either I has to stop doing what I loved ( and spending tons of money on art supplies) or take a plunge and just try to sell it. There that was my motivation. Do or die! That's my story... not very interesting.
Do you ask yourself these questions?
Is there ever the right moment? how about but there are so many others better than I, what if it doesn't sell? What if nobody likes it?:( ... What if somebody does???
what if what you think is not great is great to someone else? If you are struggling with these questions you have to know that if you don't try how will you know?
I really never gave it much thought, I went from doing art all the time and putting it in a box or giving it away.. (very little of it) to oh, well if it sells it sells! It's not really till now, till I've had a small measure of success selling my work that I am starting to doubt myself!! almost like a child thinks his work is just his, nothing more or less, its special cause its his..then as he grows he begins to doubt whether its good at all until he just doesn't try anymore.
You really know when you are ready to sell and to show the world who you are, what your talent is and that's when you know when to sell.. don't be afraid to show it to those around you, take classes, and my biggest and best advice...practice,practice,practice every day... experiment and if you are like me.. if you care about wasting paper, make art on cardboard, old wood, old mail, bills,( just make sure you're not going to send them out! old books,newspaper,anything you can recycle... and don't be afraid to go for your dreams! don't allow doubt to creep through... sometimes when I'm really feeling down on myself I look at art that is not to my liking then I feel, if they can do this, then so can I!
Don't ever let it be said... you never tried! reach for the stars and grab the moon! if someone else can do it so can you.. and always remember...beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Don't judge yourself, and don't be afraid to be judged, some may love you and others... not so much but who cares.. there WILL be someone who is going to think you are the best.
Take Picasso... one of the best... who judged his art? honestly, I don't think it's all that great, his hands were disproportionate ( i can't draw hands either) and his later work...well... lets just say if I had created it, I probably would of been denounced as an artist... but that's just my opinion... others praise him!! another example...Van Gogh...my favorite artist of all time! He was never appreciated until he died!!! ugh... what were they thinking when they could not see the incredible talent of this man.
So you see art is relevant, what is beautiful to others is hideous to me and what may be beautiful to me is hideous to others.
When is the right time to come out of the closet?(I'm talking art of course!)When you know that you know that the time is right and if you're not sure, practice until you know that you know!!
Hope I didn't bore you too much with this incredibly long rambling post but I really want those of you who are not sure about themselves and their art to do something about it! You need to act now, make a plan, make a change.. you deserve to give your dreams a chance!!
One more thing.. on classes... I am so not sure of even where to begin to give an online class I think I will give it more thought and research and let you all know when the right time comes, until then, there are an incredibly talented and amazing artists giving classes right now that if I had the time and money, I would take all of them!!so if you can take some great classes and learn as much as you can until you become the artist you want to become!! Love you all! :+)