Tuesday, July 31, 2012

How fast and slow does summer go all at the same time? It seems I wrote the last post a week ago but then again the days have gone slow for me... maybe its because I'm not rushing around doing a million things as usual... any way I promised a post a week after last but its turned into almost three weeks later... oops! :/ I hope you'll forgive me. Anyway I promised to talk about getting the courage to get out there and do what you  really want to do...
I always believed I would someday do something special, at least that's what I wanted to do, probably most of us has some aspirations to become famous, save someones life, be noticed at least... maybe even invent a medical breakthrough that cures all diseases! come up with a super formula to loose weight or grow hair!! Save the world!! ooops.. getting carried away..
: I must have been about 9 and my dream was to be an Olympian gymnast! I would go to sleep every night thinking about it and when the Olympics came on I would glue myself to the tv screen. I tried to teach myself.. (my family did not have the money and really I never told anyone my secret aspirations) I really didn't know how to achieve my dreams but thought if I dream it enough... it will happen.
Now I knew I had to practice but who would teach me?? I knew no one who could help me, so the next best thing was to go for the cheer leading team at school... maybe I could inch my way to my goal through that.. but alas.. I was not popular, or very coordinated so my cheer leading aspirations were quenched in zero-point-ten seconds when I couldn't even remember the cheer for tryouts!! I could tumble.. a little.. do the splits.. do a back bend and a cartwheel. I was very flexible! why not? I practiced  anyway every day in my backyard!I got better, I knew someday somehow someone would discover me and I would be the next Nadia Comaneci!!
That was my dream until my second year(needless to say, my dream was dwindling fast!) of college when in my Gymnastics class, my teacher over rotated me and I fell on the balance beam and broke my nose!! that's it... I was done!! I couldn't keep the dream alive anymore. too painful... I was too old any way! not in the future at all, so why bother...I quit!
 Fast forward...30 something years... no I never fulfilled my dream of becoming an Olympic gymnast ...the odds were against me...
 I really never knew what i wanted to be when I grew up... Yes I loved to draw.. but that didn't mean i could ever be good enough... at least not good enough to aspire to own my own art business, that could never happen to me.. I thought I was mediocre.. but that didnn't mean I was going to stop learning and growing as an artist..I kept trying and putting away my art until my husband and family began to think that I was having hoarding issues!  Finally I was given an ultimatum...sell it or stop doing it.. that was it.. it wasn't a matter of... "is it good enough", but either I has to stop doing what I loved ( and spending tons of money on art supplies) or take a plunge and just try to sell it. There that was my motivation. Do or die! That's my story... not very interesting.
 Do you ask yourself these questions?
Is there ever the right moment? how about but there are so many others better than I, what if it doesn't sell? What if nobody likes it?:( ... What if somebody does??? what if what you think is not great is great to someone else? If you are struggling with these questions you have to know that if you don't try how will you know?
I really never gave it much thought, I went from doing art all the time and putting it in a box or giving it away.. (very little of it) to oh, well if it sells it sells! It's not really till now, till I've had a small measure of success selling my work that I am starting to doubt myself!! almost like a child thinks his work is just his, nothing more or less, its special cause its his..then as he grows he begins to doubt whether its good at all until he just doesn't try anymore.
 You really know when you are ready to sell and to show the world who you are, what your talent is and that's when you know when to sell.. don't be afraid to show it to those around you, take classes, and my biggest and best advice...practice,practice,practice every day... experiment and if you are like me.. if you care about wasting paper, make art on cardboard, old wood, old mail, bills,( just make sure you're not going to send them out! old books,newspaper,anything you can recycle... and don't be afraid to go for your dreams! don't allow doubt to creep through... sometimes when I'm really feeling down on myself I look at art that is not to my liking then I feel, if they can do this, then so can I!
 Don't ever let it be said... you never tried! reach for the stars and grab the moon! if someone else can do it so can you.. and always remember...beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Don't judge yourself, and don't be afraid to be judged, some may love you and others... not so much but who cares.. there WILL be someone who is going to think you are the best.
Take Picasso... one of the best... who judged his art? honestly, I don't think it's all that great, his hands were disproportionate ( i can't draw hands either) and his later work...well... lets just say if I had created it, I probably would of been denounced as an artist... but that's just my opinion... others praise him!! another example...Van Gogh...my favorite artist of all time! He was never appreciated until he died!!! ugh... what were they thinking when they could not see the incredible talent of this man.
So you see art is relevant, what is beautiful to others is hideous to me and what may be beautiful to me is hideous to others.
When is the right time to come out of the closet?(I'm talking art of course!)When you know that you know that the time is right and if you're not sure, practice until you know that you know!!
 Hope I didn't bore you too much with this incredibly long rambling post but I really want those of you who are not sure about themselves and their art to do something about it! You need to act now, make a plan, make a change.. you deserve to give your dreams a chance!!
 One more thing.. on classes... I am so not sure of even where to begin to give an online class I think I will give it more thought and research and let you all know when the right time comes, until then, there are an incredibly talented and amazing artists giving classes right now that if I had the time and money, I would take all of them!!so if you can take some great classes and learn as much as you can until you become the artist you want to become!! Love you all! :+)

9 comments:

Frances said...

Thank you so much for sharing from your heart and for being willing to become vulnerable by putting out your art. I, for one, am among those who absolutely LOVE your creations. They speak. And to me, that is one of the most important things I search for in art. My heart has truly been touched this morning as I've spent some time over at Flickr viewing your Stream. I will definitely be following your future work. And what a joy that will be! May God's face shine upon you today! Hugs.

PBsArtStudio said...

Thanks so much Frances! your comments really warm my heart... and thanks for the sweet bleesings too.. I hope your day is filled with sunshine too! :)

Hartelief Yvonne said...

Dear Patti, Just stumbled over you at Etsy, immediately in awe, so I searched for you and found you here... Where you waiting for my visit? Your last post is exactly in tune with my insecurity of the last weeks... Dreaming to ope an Etsy shop, not sure if any one is waiting for my artwork. Just love to do it so much.... (and spending a ton on supplies)...
My biggest question is how do I set my prizes?
Who am I to put a pricetag on it anyway???

If your interested in some of my work you could see some on my Facebook page: Hartelief Yvonne.
I'll definitely come back to your blog!!! Love, Yvonne

PBsArtStudio said...

Yvonne.. thank you so much for coming by.. your comment is sweet! and yes, I was waiting for you!! I think that most of us feel the way you do and pricing is so hard.. especially when you don't know how much your art is worth. I started by putting a low price on my paintings to see if I had a market, I started on Ebay, but I don't recommend ebay anymore it's really hard to sell and people want everything for practically free, unless you already have a following. but start by figuring out how much time and money you put in your piece and how much your time is worth, and you are only worth what you truly believe you are worth,.. for example if I would normally make ten dollars an hour working at my job, I would want to replace that from my painting and if it took 2 hours to make then $20 plus supplies.. and by the way.. who are you?.. why.... you're "the artist"!!! and yes you have a God given ability and gift only a handful of the world population have, why should you not be paid for that creative mind...everybody has a gift and special talent, be it a doctor, lawyer, singer, or baseball player, they all get paid, what makes them better than you! You need to create and be paid for it, question is do you deserve it... absolutely! It is your right! What makes another artist worthy of payment compared to you... your belief in yourself... so don't doubt yourself! Just jump in head first.. and I saw your art.. its adorable! Thanks for the friendship too! :)

Wendy Maynard said...

What a wonderful post - I've loved your art for a couple of years now!

Mimi and Tilly said...

Hello, I used to draw paint and make things every day when i was a little girl, then was told by different people that what I made wasn't good enough to sell (I wanted to set up a table in front of my house and sell my pictures to passersby!) then my art teacher at high school didn't think too much of my work and I totally lost my confidence. In January this year I picked up art pens and pencils for the first time in years and started to doodle. I absolutely love drawing and painting and would love to sell my work but seem to have so many doubts that I could actually produce something that people would want to pay hard cash for! I have to tell myself each time I draw a picture and paint that it's "just a doodle, nothing to get worried about" otherwise I can't put pen to paper. I very much appreciate your post today, thank you. Em :)

Kama said...

What a great post - I'm right in the middle of this feeling now - I've taken online classes - I know what I love to paint - I've practiced an practiced but I'm afraid to try to sell with exactly the feelings you talk about. I'm still too afraid that I might innocently do something that looks a little like someone elses and thats not right. But I will give things a try soon thanks to your post - I will stand back and ask myself the questions I need to ask and then I will be brave and try.........Thank you so much........

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