Wednesday, July 11, 2012

believe in yourself

Today I want to be a bit more reflective... It's funny but somehow..( call it what you may, some call it fate, or the universe, to me it is God)..God taught me a little lesson! I have been feeling a little down on myself and my art, not that I don't believe in myself and my art... I do what I love and wouldn't even show it if I thought it totally stunk! But i know the rule.. There will always be someone better, more popular, more famous, who knows how to market themselves better than me, can get more followers,admirers,potential customers and things just fall into their lap... well.. That was what I was thinking.. I sometimes feel like maybe I'm just not good enough..(boo-hoo!)or maybe I just really arrived a little late... and more tears and whining... Well here is the lesson that I learned today... I recently put up a few low priced art pieces.. I do them when I am just watching TV or just on a whim... I love doing them to experiment and try new techniques or just for fun. Also I wanted, now that I have time to spare for summer, to put up some affordable art that if someone wants and hasn't been able to afford, can purchase and maybe get to know me... one Of my first pieces was "Shew Fly"...
I made this piece in January of this year a 5x5 on acrylic paper... simple simple... I put it away back then because I thought this isn't what someone would want.. I think its cute but I prejudged what a potential buyer might think... As I put up these other pieces I had made in the last few weeks , I thought well I will put it up but doubtfully it will sell, even at its low low price... guess what... it was the first to sell... not only that but the person who bought it sent me a message telling me how much it means to her, as she was feeling doubtful herself .. you see , she's an artist too and was feeling pretty much like I was feeling only maybe a bit worse! My heart just wrenched in sadness to know that someone would feel this way...As I wrote a message to her I realized that this is what I have to tell myself too... We are our own worst critics! why do we beat ourselves up and worse why do we compare ourselves to others who "we" think are better.. we just put ourselves down even further... We all tend to do this.. why does that person make better money.. why is she thinner or have a better body or a bigger house... The grass is always greener on the other side and we never see behind closed doors what the other person may be suffering through... like the person making better money may not be happy with the relationship they have and would love to be in the situation you are in... or she may have the best husband in the world but may not have a good relationship with their parents... these situations could be endless... God always has a way of teaching me a lesson when I am in "whiny" mode! We all must realize that we all have different gifts and the right to express our inner emotions through art, music, dance or whichever way our little heart desires.. if you give up then you'll never know if you could of made it... if you compare yourself you'll never be good enough,, if you believe in yourself and try with all your heart then you will look back on your life and know that at least you gave it your all!! Don't allow yourself to think for even a minute that you are not good enough... we all deserve to express what is in our hearts.even if we think its horrible! to another it may be the most beautiful... reminds me of the "Velveteen Rabbit" but that's another post... And so to end this REALLY long and whiny post I leave you with my latest and happiest thought...It is the ultimate solution to all problems... think of this ...if instead of fighting we all just sat down and shared cake... oh happy day!...(not to mention a little hefty hefty! ...hehe) IF LIFE GIVE YOU LEMONS EAT CAKE!!

15 comments:

Jenxo said...

Hi , i cant believe that you would doubt yourself...your work is just beautiful :) we all need to stop that inner critic and just get on with it otherwise we would never make anything and thats what makes us happy...the creating :)
i just ordered two of your beautiful prints, those owls just made me happy :)

Stephanie Gentry said...

Thank you for sharing, Patti.
I,too, suffer from self-doubt and other related insecurities. That self-doubt and feeling small in a huge world full of so many other successful artists keeps me from moving forward and following my heart, and realizing my dreams. It's so hard to just trust that my art will find a following.
So, thank you for your encouraging thoughts and advice; they have helped to confirm that I really must make a go of following my heART.
Now, just when to go for it? Don't suppose you want to advise on that topic? :D

PBsArtStudio said...

Jen.. thank you! I am happy if i accomplish that one thing to make someone happy!! and yes... I think we all have insecurities but it's conquering them that makes us better!!
Stephanie... its so nice to hear from you! thanks for stopping by... I say there is never a better time than today.. this moment... If we always wait till we get better how do we know we are better? :) follow your heart... and believe in yourself. if you don't feel good about your art.. ask those around you, take classes, better yourself but don't ever give up on your dream!! there is always a chance that you will surprise yourself! ;0... my next post I will talk about that and also a little on how to improve your art..next week.. lots of hugs to both of you! ;)

Lesley said...

Oh I think we have all been where you are....I have been many times but then my inner voice (and God) tell me to push forward, you can do this. I find the leaving negativity is one good thing to learn and it is not easy. I was also a pessimist when growing up, now I look at things as an optimist. After 50 years you do learn some things. I love your art and I am sorry I haven't discovered you sooner. keep up the great work...there is light at the end of the tunnel, I know, been there done that and you will too.
Happy thoughts, Lesley♥

Catherine... said...

Hi Patti, What a beautiful post...you are so right. I get terrible self doubt, I feel a little flat and rubbish at the momemt. My Mojo is off, on a tea break I hope. So I will take my lemons and make Lemon drizzle cake or maybe lemon cheesecake... That should have my Mojo back in no time :)
Don't doubt yourself, your work is amazing... :D

PBsArtStudio said...

Lesley.. yes God always teaches us those little lessons that make us better! thank you for your sweet comment! :)

PBsArtStudio said...

Catherine.. Yum! that sounds amazing and soon you will see all the troubles go away especially with lemon cake... my favorite!! Thanks for the sweet words! xoxo P

Marti McClure said...

Your work is fabulous! I just love the "eating cake" girl, as much as I love the saying. YOu are very talented. ~Marti

Jane Blogs said...

She's every bit as beautiful in person as she is on the computer screen. Thank you Patti, for everything xx

Beautiful Awakenings - Kaz said...

Hi Patti

Please do not doubt yourself as your work has been a real inspiration to me. Did a course with Jodi Ohl and used both of you as inspiration for a picture for my room called Be Brave - would prob make it not so dark next time but really love the out come - you can see it on my blog - near the beginning. Thank you and maybe one day i will invest in one of your lovely originals - as a friend of mine has an arty giraffe shop and with all my practicing has asked to fill a wall with my work - self doubt as do not really feel that am good enough as have just had so much fun playing and trying out new things - keep on the good work and do not eat too much cake!!

xoxo
Kaz

Blissful Pumpkin said...

Hi Patti,
I just love this post. I can certainly relate to it. I LOVE your work. Truly. You have a lovely, beautiful sweet style. Keep up the amazing work.
Hugs, Kyles =D

PBsArtStudio said...

Marti.. Thanks so much for your sweet words.. It is so nice you took the time to come and encourage me! all of you!!<3
Kaz.. I'm so flattered!! thanks you so much! I will def check it out and my very best wishes to you!! :))
Kyles: Thank you so much!! I love your work too.. thanks so much for stopping by to give me encouragement!! :)

And Jane I am so happy you like her... I hope she gives you inspiration!! :)))

Unknown said...

Hello, I just found you through Pintrest and I just have to say your are ummmazing!!!!!!!!!!!!! So so talented. I am an artist too and I have doubt every day! I have fear sometimes of even starting a canvas! Why? Why? Why? We are creative souls. Art is beautiful and what is most important is DO WE LOVE IT? YES WE DO! So DO IT!!! I wish you would teach!

PBsArtStudio said...

Hi there.. I am so grateful to you for taking the time to stop by and encourage me.. :)

sleepless creations said...

Hello...I just came across ur blogg AND ITS AMAZING I read ur story on your paintings and how as an artist we doubt ourselfs...its very refreshing and interesting to know that theres other artist feeling this way...you have described word for word my feelings EXACLY..THANK U!!!

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