Friday, October 1, 2010
"Pondering" life's purpose
Hmmm, This is a warning, might be a bit boring and long too!...this post is a very "thinkative" post...is that a word?... I don't think so but It really captures what I want to say, so today I'm making it a word!...
Coming home from work tonight, I heard on a radio show, here in Fl. (don't know if it's heard anywhere else in the US called the "Delilah" show.. (love it) there's dedications and stories and songs,Tonight she talked to a man about how everyone has a purpose in life, That God gives us all a calling, It made me think.. Well what is that calling for me... I don't really know, could art be considered a calling, I don't know how that can help anyone though except maybe decorate their home or hopefully have some deep meaning to their personal life. I know that when I like an art piece, It's that... I just love it, the way it makes me feel, or the way it reminds me of something, but could that really be my only purpose in life? make something cute...Ha! I can't barely sell it let alone make it a purpose in my life!! so ... is there more? Have I not yet heard my calling? cause I'm not getting any younger here! How do I find it? I kind of envy the nurses, teachers, missionaries, policemen, firemen and all those that do public service, even the garbage collectors do us a great service, they do a job that no-one wants, but we all couldn't live without!, they live for helping others( by putting themselves in danger even or sacrificing their time and sometimes their family too!...(Here's a great big star to you(you're better to me than any athlete or celebrity!!!) but how have I helped anyone? yeah I've raised three kids, that was a calling I guess, but they are young adults now, I'm pretty much done there....I once took a little old lady from my Moms nursing home for a bogus ride thinking I was helping her!( you can read about that here...under #5, its a pretty kooky story, being that I'm sometimes really naive!)I would love to help others, just don't know where to start(don't like volunteering, I'm too shy for that, ??.......ugh, I hope I hear that calling one day...
Well I told you this would be a boring post... sorry, just had to get that off my chest, I sometimes, think of things like that... Am I strange? Probably, but I guess I was in one of these moods when I painted this painting, almost two years ago, and it really fits this post, so I'm going to post it just cause it fits! LOL!
Well I guess I leave you with my thoughts, love to hear what everyone thinks, does anyone else think about this stuff?
Have a great weekend all!