This little painting is called "Be Strong" and I would like to dedicate it to all of You!I so appreciate your visits and I feel so much kindness when you post your sweet comments, all I want to do reciprocate, I may not always comment back, although I try, but I am thinking of you. I want to especially dedicate it to those of you who may be going through hard times...
On her dress it says..."I will no longer be afraid to spread my Wings and Fly"
This brings me to a question I was asked today and that I get a lot and thought, maybe people perceive me a certain way because of my Art. So I decided to open up a little about me. I got asked if my art reflects my personality or my life, because there is a certain sadness in my paintings. The answer to that is no. I don't know why my paintings turn out sad, I don't think they are sad but maybe reflect other feelings, of course that's in my mind, and maybe that's not how people see my art.
I had a bittersweet childhood, My mother suffered from schizophrenia and because of that I was passed along my 5 different Aunts, some treated me really well, while others not so much, all in all, I had happy times and sad times. (We all do)
But the hardest thing I lived in my Childhood was coming to the US at the age of two, (I was born in Costa Rica)I was never accepted very well in school, because we lived in a community (In NJ)where It was mostly middle income Whites mostly Italian decent (the funny thing was that my ancestors were mostly Italian also) but children can be so cruel, I was bullied all through my childhood, even getting in trouble at school just so i could stay late and not have to walk home alone and get beat up. I was thankful ever Summer when I would get sent to CR to go to school so I could learn Spanish, because i always fit in there. We moved when I was 13 to Florida, where it was different, no one discriminated against me but by now I was mostly a scared girl, even of my shadow! I learned to cope with my fears in time though and God healed my heart. I met the most wonderful guy, we've been married(happily) for 24 years and I have three Beautiful, amazing Kids who are my Joy! God has Blessed me so much! and I have so much to be grateful for, even my childhood!
I feel that God allows Things to happen in our lives for a reason, I think I am a better person because of all I went through and though It was hard, I am who I am today because of it and I do thank God for "everything"!
I feel that life is what we make of it, we choose to Love, We choose to be kind, we choose to pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off and continue on the journey that God has mapped out for us, we choose to be happy and I am. I rarely am in a bad mood or sad or unhappy with what God has given me. I am very easy going and carefree, I let things just roll right off and I love to have fun! I am hardly ever serious and love to joke around but I am a little airheaded and fogetful some times, which i usually just laugh off! But one thing for sure is that it is hard for me to open myself up and talk about my life, I very rarely do so and I feel apprehension about it. I really am doubting posting this, but I must be brave!
As for my Art, I don't feel that it is sad, I try to express kindness, love, compassion, and happiness, which in a way is my form of reaching out to people, just maybe not in the traditional way of smiling. It kind of saddens me to think that some people feel sadness though when they look at my art, I guess everyone perceives it their own way.